
Alivia Rainn Ramirez and her brother Timothy Joseph Ramirez died in a fire. Their mother is accused of leaving them home alone.
Tonight I can only wonder how Danielle Brockman feels in her jail cell.
Pure anguish, I imagine.
This evening, I cannot pause my own mental image of her suffering.
I see Brockman dressed in a jumpsuit, sobbing uncontrollably in a cold corner alone, as she begins her own personal hell of guilt and loss.
I hate writing down that description, but as many of you know, writing for me is cathartic, especially when I cover stories involving the death of children.
I can only imagine what first responders deal with.
I spent some time today scrolling through Brockman’s facebook profile page with the intent of giving our viewers a better understanding of who she is and what she’s like.
Of course, on facebook, we put words and images online of what we want people to know about our lives.
Almost every single post and every single image was about her children. Brockman wanted her friends to know she was proud to be a mommy and she made it clear she loved her children. She certainly came across that way.
She seemed honest even as she expressed typical frustrations of being a mom.
In one status update, she wrote about her son getting something stuck up his nose. He had to be taken to the emergency room, she wrote.
After reading that post, I suddenly remembered a long forgotten event in my own life that was very similar.
When I was around the same age, my mom had to take me to the doctor after I stuck a pine nut up my nose. A story I haven’t thought of for a while…something we used to joke about a lot in my family.
Briefly, I found humor in the post and I smiled because of the similar boyhood experience this little boy had.
The humor was fleeting as I reminded myself that the children smiling back at me through that facebook page are gone.
Despite the artificial connection of a computer screen, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of loss.
I’ve covered plenty of death through my career as a reporter. Stories involving children never get easy to cover. Never.
After seeing several dozen photos of Brockman’s children, the image of their mother locked up in jail came flooding into my head. Her kids seemed so alive on the screen…..so happy.
Brockman is accused of leaving her children home alone when the fire broke out. What exactly she was allegedly doing is unclear.
The criminal affidavit remains sealed.